I must say, it's really a hell lotsa fun yest. Afterall, how could there not be fun with those bastards around? N dun get me wrong, addressing em as bastards doesn't mean anytink defamatory. Our ties are so strong that it transcends beyond any names, terms or labels.

Also, this yr, being the last Xmas that Junhao, Irene, YF n most prob YZ are gg to be in the Most Eligible Singles club, it bears more significance than ever. Thus, it was madness yest. Esp YM n YZ..they almost forgot that every drop of liqour is actually chargeable as they poured practically oni neat into our glasses and the latter's mind was prob overly consumed with booze as he decided to mix beer wif Martell. Bad, bad concoction. Needless to say, YZ was one of the 1st to bid goodbye to sobriety. Haha.

Nevertheless, despite the fun, the emo side of mi acts up badly again last nite..

Sweets tot i was angry at him. But nope, i was not. Hw could i bear to aniway? This is the guy who have been standing by me while i went through a full year of shit.

I guess its not easy to express in words of the emotions that i have been undergoing..not to my dearest grp of chums yest, lest here in my blog. The emotional baggage is just way too heavy..

N thus, i left discreetly at 2+ for I know the guys will not allow me to leave mid-way through the party. I do not want to spoil their fun but i was too distraught n upset to stay on.

I boarded a cab to meet him n i was in tears throughout the whole ride.

However, this shall be the last time that I will allow myself to be upset over this issue again.

Afterall, its not as if u care aniway, do u? I doubt so. As such, why should I?