For the 1st tme in 2yrs, I feel intensely burnt-out.

Unmotivated, fatigued, dispirited, yet totally indolent to do anytink.

All of a sudden, all the shite abt nos, transport etc, seems to be taking a toll on mi. Huge, huge toll.

This bodes realli bad signs, and I am perfectly aware of it. Yet all I ever did was to harp on it; making absolutely no constructive changes to the state of things.

I dread mornings these days, cos it signifies gg to work.

I dread 9-6.30pm, cos I duno hw the hell to occupy my time.

Of all, I dread myself the most. Cos I noe the underlying problem has notink to do wif anytink else but wif myself.

Yes, all the fuck i know is to rant non-stop. That's precisely why I said I am the root cause of it all.

I am my own adversary.

What do I really want?